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Bronchitis has returned. I went to the hospital the other day. It’s a private hospital, so I guess the risk of getting COVID-19 is pretty low, hopefully. The coughing was terrible last week I couldn’t stand it. Although it seems to be better now, I may need to see an otolaryngologist later if it persists. I’ve been treating myself like shit lately, and I’m sorry for myself.

I always get sick easily. Normally, it’s not something serious, only makes my life difficult. It’s hard to stay physically healthy when you have mental disorders. Sometimes, I just don’t want to get out of bed. I know I need to workout at the back of my mind. I’ve been thinking and thinking. Guess what? It doesn’t happen. Not yet.

I’m still trying, though. I think part of it is that I don’t take care of myself seriously until I get sick. This time I’ll try to keep my health in check because coughing and waking up in the middle of the night is absolutely not fun. It’s almost 100 degree in the afternoon in the summer, but I’ll try not to stay in the A/C too much. And I’ll stay away from cold drinks no matter how hard it is.

Social distancing makes it harder to be physically active. I rarely go out of the house. I’m almost losing track of time. The whole pandemic situation is making me anxious. I only want to eat and play video games and stay up late.

I don’t think I’m the only one. But some people are having it harder than me. A lot harder. People are put out of work. Some don’t even have a roof over their heads. Our government is completely useless. And cruel.

I wonder what it’s like to live in the time of plague, or any pandemic for that matter. I almost believe that this is what it’s like when humankind is threatened by a disease. But no, it is not. It should not be like this. Look at some countries who do better than others. It should no be like this, but sadly people are never equal.

I often think about people living in poverty, and it just makes me feel depressed. People are donating, which is great. But helping its people is the government’s top priority. They just don’t do it. The government is not doing nearly enough.

I don’t want to get political but I just can’t stand it.