I’ve been gone for too long I can’t remember the last entry of my gratitude journal. Probably will continue the journal next time.
I’ve been working hard this whole time and I’m so, so depressed. The heat isn’t helping. We’re in the middle of April where it is the hottest time of the year in my country. To be honest, the hot weather makes everything worse.
I literally slept the whole day today. I woke up at 1pm to have lunch. Then I went to bed again at around 2pm and woke up at 6pm. It’s my scheduled day off, but still. Isn’t that too much? It’s clearly isn’t normal. I’m depressed again.
I can still work, though. I think it’s the nature of my work that makes me stressed. I don’t know. I feel so hopeless with what I’m working on right now. However, the only thing I can do is to push forward. It’s probably the curse of a being a writer. Who the fuck knows? I should be all right once I finish this project. That will be the end of May. By the time, the heat should cool down as well. I’m still feeling hopeful, so that means it’s not that bad, right?
My husband has been so sweet and supportive as always. After dinner today, I didn’t want to come back home yet and I asked him whether he could drive us around the neighborhood. He did just that and we found a few restaurants we haven’t tried yet.
I’m so grateful to my husband.
–Petra
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